It is so easy to be frustrated when you hurt and there were and are many days I struggle. For anyone out there with health issues on a daily basis, my heart goes out to you. I understand!
My faith in Jesus has kept me going! I honestly feel sorry for those who do not know Him and have no hope to look forward to. With all the challenges I have had, I have been strengthened by Him.
I understand with the physical challenges, the mental challenges can be just as excruciating and they can mess with your mind. Pain changes a person in that some can become really grouchy and others can become mean and violent.
I, myself, am a bit grouchy and I may tell someone how much I hurt, but it’s no where near the truth of how much I hurt. I hide it well. I think of the verse in the Bible where it says to not draw attention to yourself and I do tell others when they ask that I may be hurting but just not exactly how bad.
I have ran across some in my days who will offer every ache and pain while taking over a conversation and this is drawing attention to themself. I do not want to be perceived like this. Then you have some who won’t even tell you they have issues and you feel bad for them later when you find out from someone else!
Whichever way you are, you cope in your own way. I think of the pain that Jesus suffered and He was sinless! I can’t fathom what He was feeling and the torture He endured and I know I am a sinner and probably deserve my pain.
But then I think of Job in the Old Testament. I have my own quirks of sinful nature, but I also love our Lord so much I know the devil hates me. The devil will do anything to pull my heart away from Him and the more I hurt, the more I get agitated and grumpy.
That, my friends, is where we all need to realize in our lives the challenges we need to bypass. If we can all keep our focus on Jesus, the whims of Satan will fade on off into darkness. These last few Stories of the first few surgeries had my brain in shambles thinking more like I was a sinner and God was punishing me.
This time period was a mix emotions of “Am I not good enough?, “Am I doing something that wrong?,” to “Satan is trying to rope me in like cattle and brand me.” Our minds can play with our emotions but never lose heart! God always loves us and wants us to completely trust Him.
We all have challenges whether it be health, jobs, mental issues, family struggles, money, and other pressing issues. It is how we handle those struggles that God looks upon us and sees our worthiness. Job never once lost faith even after his home burned and children were killed, his wife leaving him, his possessions destroyed, and his health deteriorated. He held true to his love for God.
I came to restful solution that whatever my life throws at me, Jesus is my forerunner. I may worry about things a bit much and get bent out of shape, literally, but no matter what happens, Heaven is my goal and His love for me has proven since I was a young girl that He is with me! Never lose hope in Jesus and pray to Him, trusting His will for you.
