Life is like the waves. There are good times and bad. God did not promise all good and we learn from our experiences. By the time I reached 18, I had just fallen for my now husband. We both went out with different people but I was getting a bit more jealous.
I only went out with maybe a handful of guys by this time. The first was a guy named Chris. I only went out twice with him. All he wanted was more than I was going to give. He was actually my first kiss because in my “hubby’s” eyes we were just friends. I didn’t have a clue about kissing but let’s just say it was gross!
Another guy who wanted to go out with me was someone I heard was a hands on guy after the fact that I said yes. So, he went babysitting with me! Haha, that was the only date we went on even though he was a very nice guy!
Another guy I went out with was a little shy and was really a nice guy, but by this time, every date I went on, my mind was on my future hubby. This guy wanted to date me more but he also knew my future hubby and understood when I explained my feelings,
Two of the 3 I went out with very briefly ended up committing suiide later in life but not because of me. Each had their own issues and their faith in God was not that strong. I feel sorry for those without God and who are such in a rut they feel there is no other way. One I heard was a druggie later and the other I am not sure but heard he had a mental breakdown.
My heart was taken in my eyes. I was not sure how his heart really was at that point but felt it was on the same path as mine. God’s plans are bigger than our own and I prayed a lot for His path to be revealed.
